Unapologetically, emotional

There is no doubt about it, if you know me, you know I cry, laugh and move. I am an "over-the-top" kinda gal. At one point (actually many points) in my life I would feel as though my emotions had to be masked due to those I was around. Then I realized something, I am just like my Abba when I cry, laugh and move. Did you know God is emotional just like you and me?

The woman you see today has been created and formed from the woman I was yesterday. There are a few Scriptures I want to lay as our foundation before we build each other up to be unapologetically emotional.

• - Ecclesiastes 3:1There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens...

• - John 11:35 Jesus wept.

• - Galatians 5:22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love...

There is no doubt in my mind, heart and body that I am emotional being. I am learning to find comfort in me, being me.

Question: How did I come to a place or accepting who I am, emotionally?

Answer: Reading the Word of God to find like-emotional people, praying to Abba about my emotions, and learning more about these emotions.

Question: Have I mastered these emotions?

Answer: No, but I am learning to each and every day.

I am emotional: joyful, sad, grateful, hopeful, humble, goofy, fearful, angry, loving, and more.

As I began my journey in 2019, I started to experience new emotions. I would cry while worshipping at church, laugh for no real reason and even disconnect all together form those around me. And for absolutely no reason. Truthfully, it set an alarm system off in my entire body and I began searching as to why it was happening. I started asking Abba why I was feeling sad, overwhelmed, anxious, suicidal, and more. He graciously let me in on a heavenly secret - You obtain part of Me in this world, My heart. Therefore, you experience people, life and circumstances the way I do.

What Abba was essentially saying was I obtain the gift of mercy. The gift of mercy can be described as being emotional for someone by expressing compassion, words or actions. For instance, me crying for no reason was not a compound or complex internal confusion. It was me being tuned into my friend's prayer requests while being wrapped up in the Holy Spirit all wrapped into one body - my body - to then outwardly express their emotions for many different reasons. The gift of mercy is a spiritual gift, it is one that you receive only from God Almighty and it is not to be taken lightly. However, within that same regard, the gift of mercy also comes with quite a bit of a challenge.

You may cry, laugh, and move in ways you cannot fully understand and that is okay. Not all women are fully emotional. However, everyone is created in the image of God. Therefore, in one way or another, we obtain His heart in this world. We may not all weep for those we are praying for or think the thoughts of others, but you have a special gift (more than one, to be honest with you) inside of you that cannot be taken lightly.

I am going to attach the spiritual gifts test to this link so you can take it for yourself to see where you most connect to God. Once you have completed the tests, check out the blog post "Spiritual Gifts" to see how you align with God, others, and get a better idea of the being God has you becoming each and everyday!

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Spiritual Gifts

Administration Being an apostle Discernment Evangelism Exhortation Faith Giving Healing Helps Hospitality Knowledge Leadership

Mercy Prophecy Serving Speaking in tongues Teaching (sometimes known as shepherding)

Wisdom

ADMINISTRATION: The ability to help steer the church, or a ministry, toward the successful completion of God-given goals, with skills in planning, organization, and supervision.

APOSTLE: A person sent to new places with the gospel. You may have heard of missionaries going to different countries to help spread the Word; they could be described as apostles. An apostle can also provide leadership to other churches or ministries and offer advice on spiritual matters.

DISCERNMENT: The wisdom to recognize truth from untruth by correctly evaluating whether a behavior or teaching is from God or another, ungodly source.

EVANGELISM: The ability to successfully communicate the message of the gospel, especially to nonbelievers.

EXHORTATION: Competence in offering encouragement, comfort, and support to help someone be all that God wants them to be.

FAITH: People with this gift have such great confidence in the power and promises of God that they can stand strong in their belief, no matter what may try to shake them. They can also stand up for the church and for their faith in such a way as to defend and move it forward.

GIVING: Those who have this gift are particularly willing and able to share what resources they have with pleasure, and without the need to see them returned.

HEALING: A capability used by God to restore others, be that physically, emotionally, mentally, or spiritually.

HELPS: Someone with this gift is able to support or assist members of the body of Christ so that they may be free to minister to others.

HOSPITALITY: A natural ability to make people—even strangers—feel welcome in one’s own home or church as a means to disciple or serve them.

KNOWLEDGE: This is the gift of someone who actively pursues knowledge of the Bible. This person may also enjoy analyzing biblical data.

LEADERSHIP: This aptitude marks a person who is able to stand before a church, to direct the body with care and attention, and to motivate them toward achieving the church’s goals.

MERCY: This is the defining trait of a person with great sensitivity for those who are suffering. It manifests itself in offering compassion and encouragement, and in a love for giving practical help to someone in need.

PROPHECY: The ability to speak the message of God to others. This sometimes involves foresight or visions of what is to come. This skill should be used only to offer encouragement or warning.

SERVING: A talent for identifying tasks needed for the body of Christ and using available resources to get the job done.

SPEAKING IN TONGUES: The supernatural ability to speak in another language (one that has not been learned).

TEACHING: The skill to teach from the Bible and communicate it effectively for the understanding and spiritual growth of others.

WISDOM: The gift of being able to sort through facts and data to discover what needs to be done for the church.

PRAYER: God Almighty, thank You for making unique. I am learning from every word spoken, thought, thought and action taken that I am not just a human-being, I am a spiritual-being wrapped in human form, like Jesus. Thank You for creating, designing and knitting me together perfectly. I pray You open my senses to better understand You and me, as well the creation around me! I love You and I thank you! May my senses be opened to better sense the gifts you have given me. My hands are open and I am willing to walk, do, say, pray and more with these gifts You have in store for me. In Jesus Name.

Give credit where credit is due: A Quick List of Biblical Spiritual Gifts: Which Gifts Exist and What They Mean. – Unfolding Faith Blog (tyndale.com)

Patient People Prevail.

So, let's just make on thing clear. You and I both want something.

The truth of the sentence before is profound. We both have hearts and deep within or on the surface, our hearts are desiring something. Maybe we want answers, family, a job, direction, so on and so firth. However, we aren't getting it so we turn on our "wanter" and we go get the very thing we are wanting.

I long for answers. If you know mw, I am a walking questionnaire. I thrive off learning. But then I live off teaching. SO for me when I am asking questions, I am ultimately setting myself up for success because I am eventually going to switch the hats and teach what I learned.

Well, today I wan to talk about you and get into what you want. After you read the third sentence you were beginning to rethink what it is you wanted. Yes, I gave you a list, but in your "wanter" you already knew what you wanted. You may only be at the surface of it, but nonetheless, you starred to have those thoughts for the one (or multiple) thing(s) you wanted. So, what is it? What do you want?

Now that it is surfacing let's get after it. After thing of what you want, have you thought of what it is going to take to get you there?

So , if you want to run a marathon.. You are going to have to train and learn how to run for miles before meeting that goal. If you want to be married, you are going to have to learn what is expected financially, physically, emotionally and spiritually. Whatever you want, you are going to have to work for it. Do you agree?

So let me help you.

What is it going to take financially for you to get what you want?

Alright, set a goal. Connect your account to a savings account (like Yotta) and begin accumulating your finances over a period of time to reach your goal!

What is it going to take you physically to get to your goal? As mentioned before in order to run a marathon, you have to train for it. It is not something that happens overnight. So, get a journal and begin jotting down your activity that you are DOING to reach your goal. It won't be the easiest thing you do in life. However, once you begin to see yourself investing into yourself, you will invest into YOU more!

What is it going to take to get you mentally prepared? Maybe a good attitude or positive thinking. Have you ever been around the "Negative-Nancy" or "Debby-Downer" and thought to yourself, "I have to get out of here, I am draining as I think?" Well, tht has to do with the energy they are putting out and it is affecting YOU mentally.

Here is what I do to better myself mentally. Each morning, I jot down what I am thinking right there in the moment and I let my imagination take flight. Then, I take that and circle the GOOD thoughts that will drive me forward . This way I am focused on the GOOD and still getting freedom to let my thoughts fly!

What is it going to take you spiritually? This is a tricky one. We all know the best thing to do is pray. Paul wrote about it in Ephesians 6! However, the question I really want to ask you is this: What prayer are you praying to get what you want? So many times throughout Scripture you will read about people who prayed prayers. Ex: Hannah, Zechariah, and David. And after studying their prayers I notices a key pattern. They voiced their DESIRE (wants) to God. So, for me, I am honest with God. I tell Him the deepest longings and then say, "and I look forward to ____________________." And I do this so not only my heart gets out what it wants, but my mouth speaks it so my mind hears it! CRAZY, right?!

So go ahead, write out all you wants, speak out your wants and then work and wait for them!

Once you begin to see yourself investing into yourself, you will invest into YOU more!